[Art] can reveal things about yourself that others may find appalling, weird, boring, or stupid.
Jerry Saltz, How to be an Artist
In restarting a writing process, I feel embarrassed, appalling, weird, boring, and stupid on nearly a daily basis.
When I do stand-up, I feel the same.
Ditto for when I try something new or go back to something I started that I liked at the time but feels off now. Or maybe I still love it and it’s just weird?
I’ve been thinking a lot about my desire to live an artist’s life. Who the hell do I think I am? I’m just a middle-aged woman who is tired of who she has been and who she is now?
I desperately want to be good at something.
Start thinking about creating.
Jerry Saltz, How to be an Artist