“But I wanted more. I wanted productivity and organization and a minimalist sterility that only the childfree could aspire to on the best of days. I wanted to stop hating my life and start having a life that I wanted. I lost weight, I got my hair did, I started spending more time with my woman friends, I started writing, I started meditating and I started the process of getting on with it. You see, when I was fat, unhealthy, and physically a mess, I didn’t deserve to leave you. I had a man, not a good one but a man nonetheless, and fat, unhealthy, messy girls should take what they can get. I needed to get to a place where I believed I was worthy of leaving you.”