“…I shared details of a relationship that never existed because I couldn’t let you know that I was, up until that moment, incapable of and uninterested in commitment and monogamy.
I needed to be because I had just placed my own flesh and blood for adoption with few tears and even fewer regrets and I was pretty sure that made me a monster…
I wanted to be good. I knew the only way I could be good was to convince you to make me good. I couldn’t try to be an 18-year-old college student. I had to be a fucking grown up who had and lived up to her responsibilities…”