“You don’t know that the anxiety is killing me. You don’t know that I cry every day when there’s no one around who might see it. You don’t know that I am not just scared, I’m terrified that every bit of positivity that has ever existed in my life is going to drain away in the next 30 days. I just need a break from someone who thinks that I’m worth getting to know despite where I’ve been and what I’ve done. I need someone to think that I’m the right “fit” for their “culture” despite being over-40 and not having a degree.”