“When you never live your life in the present all your (in)actions are justified by the unknown but somehow more awesome future. Who I want to be 6 months from now is all-consuming. Who I want to be by the time I’m 45 is more important than who I am now. What I want to do in that near future will affect who I am by the time I’m 50 or by the time I’m too physically disabled to care anymore. Who I am right now is not good enough. I need to be someone different because nothing about where I am right now is acceptable.”