“The only way out is through it. To just trudge and get it over with. Get up in the morning, put the game face on, do the things, drink some bourbon, go to bed. Wake up to do something very similar the next day, and the day after that, and the day after that, until it’s just all done and I can leave. It will be over. I won’t have to think about here again.
That’s the real goal, to just do whatever it takes to move on from everything that’s been holding me back. I’m being realistic here. There is so much going on in my life that I can’t control and it’s keeping me from having the life I want. These are not self-imposed or imagined. The world I inhabit right now sucks balls. I have to train to be ready for the day it all changes.”